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LJ since 2001 [Jan. 15th, 2011|12:33 am]
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so I realized I have had this journal since 2001...and it's really interesting to see what was in the mind of 14 year old Ruthlyn. No wonder people thought I was so fucking cool....I was a pretty hardcore teen! (ok not in the porno way, you perve)! But wow I was super interesting. I had more of an edge than I do now. 23, divorced, engaged, in the military. . .living in a monochromatic military world...

Well I still have my edge...but it's not as sharp. haha Or I suppose life's experiences has caused me to be more jaded. That's adulthood for ya! However I still have a "pioneer" frame of mind. I was told last night that I was bubbly. I've never been called "bubbly" before...it was a huge compliment to my current state. A credit to my maturity...that I am truly happy! My tough girl facade in high school was masking deep-seated negligence that I felt from people I love. Now I am more genuine than ever and I don't have to hide behind anything...or anyONE to affirm who I am.

How liberating to finally come into my own, finally love and fully accept who I am and learn to love and accept others for who they are. I want to leave the planet having made an impact on everyone who knows me. Admittedly, it would satisfy what little ego I have left to know that I left a legacy of some sort. But also, the truth is that you really never know when's the last time you will see someone. As cliche as that sounds, it's really worth the effort to treat everyone with kindness, dignity and respect.

I've learned not to judge people's reactions to problems based on how I would react. I remember getting heated when I would see girls in high school cry over a grade of B-, when I have seen and been through so much more horror. I've learned that instead of dogging people for not being as strong as I was, it's far more satisfying to be understanding and help them become stronger. I realized that I have the gift of communicating with people in such a way that I can relate to just about anybody in a matter of seconds. So why be annoyed by people when I was blessed with people skills?


Anyway...it's been a crazy long two weeks. Finally I get a weekend :-) I'm spent.
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hmmmm [Nov. 2nd, 2007|10:06 pm]
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haha interesting stuff going on. i'm happy right now.
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2007|12:43 am]
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lol I can't sleep. And I work 12-9 tomorrow. MR. SANDMAN. . .COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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(no subject) [May. 6th, 2007|10:01 am]
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I'm leaving today. Back to Virginia with me! Not looking forward to that 12 hour ride/drive though. Hope I can get all my crap in the car. Hope I can throw out what's unnecessary.
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no longer friends only [May. 3rd, 2007|09:41 pm]
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what's the point?
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Memoirs of a Geisha. . .the BOOK!!!!!!!! [Jan. 4th, 2006|10:51 am]
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I finally saw the movie Memoirs of a Geisha last night. It took me only two days to read the 400-page book, because I simply could not put it down. The book opens up an enchanting world without endlessly clinging onto setting detail. For instance- I get bored very easily when I have to read pages and pages of rolling hills, slight breezes through the willows, changes in the wind, and how the river flows around a quiet mountain. However, the setting was only briefly described and the book is more centered on emotion and character development. This kind of writing left much room for imagination (something I have yet to master). The characters were 3-dimensional. Each and every character had their own set of mannerisms, dialogue pattern and consistent mood. Each character was able to change the atmosphere, depending on how the character affected the plot- toward or against the interest of the protagonist and heroine. The main character Chiyo/Sayuri was a character whom you could sympathize for because she is narrating- not just stories of her successful Geisha days, but her entire life that includes her humble beginnings as an old fisherman’s daughter. The main antagonist and the enemy throughout the book is a very beautiful, very diabolical woman named Hatsumomo. When Hatsumomo enters any setting, there is just this feeling of impending doom because she is an evil woman, who uses her undeserving outer beauty and charm for deception and pain. She goes out of her way to make Chiyo/Sayuri’s life miserable. But I must say- that the most profound character in the book is the character called “Pumpkin”. The reason why I say that she is a profound character is because of her changes throughout the book. Chiyo meets Pumpkin as a child and they both work as maids together in the Nitta (Nitta is the name of the woman who runs it) Okiya- which is funded by the beautiful and devious Hatsumomo. Hatsumomo decides to take Pumpkin in as her little sister and apprentice Geisha to be trained as a rival for Chiyo. Chiyo gets trained by Hatsumomo’s rival, Mameha. Pumpkin and Chiyo both learn how to be elegant Geisha- not prostitutes- but Geisha, skilled, artistic female companions for the well-to-do. However, while Chiyo maintains her elegance and modesty all throughout the novel, Pumpkin is influenced by American culture when the American soldiers invade Japan. Pumpkin appears to be a critique on the decadence of American culture in contrast to Japanese culture. She drinks, she smokes, she is loud and outspoken- nothing at all like the little shy girl she was earlier in the novel. The book introduces you to a new set of Japanese vocabulary, such as okiya (house where Geisha live) and mizuage (virginity). You may not know anything about Japan or Japanese culture, but you will never forget or stray away from the setting (which is late 1930s-40s Japan) because a picture is constantly being painted without diverting from the plot.

Now. . .the movie actually did the book some justice. I did not expect this at all. The movie was very true to the characters and the setting in the book. I was very pleased with the movie- although I knew what was going to happen next, I was still on the edge of my seat wondering how it was going to be depicted on film. Surprizingly, the movie did not exclude plot devices that I deemed as important. The movie did not exclude anything that I deemed as necessary advances toward the plot. The movie began at about chapter 5, lol which was cool with me because those first few chapters weren’t the most exciting ever. The movie also did an excellent job in illustrating all that was specifically described in the book, such as the various Kimonos that were worn by various characters. I would say more, but I doubt that anyone is gonna read this anyway, lol. I just had to get it out. The movie was awesome, the end. Lol.
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(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2005|04:00 pm]
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Hey guys. . .i'm gonna go Friends Only from now on. I'm tired of having to censor what I say.
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onto the next phase of being broke. . . [May. 31st, 2005|03:51 pm]
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Graduation:
I graduated two days ago. They threatened that I wouldn't march because I came in the dorm 30 minutes late (for the curfew) from Applebees 12:30 AM- oh puh-leaze! Anywho, graduation was short and to the point. But I, along with my 57 classmates will be getting my diploma in the mail. I tripped on a cord in front of my seat. . .twice. . .but no one saw but the graduates who were sitting in behind me- praise God. I was in the front row (because i'm short) which was perfect because it meant that I would get my diploma (or lack there of) sooner than most of the class, and I would also get to sit down sooner, because my feet were killing me. I was also sneezing the whole time and in part, getting the tassel in my eye and my mouth. . .now THAT was annoying. Cousins came up, we took some great pics, and went out to Shady Maple Smorgesboard (Sabbath) for some grub. Ironically enough, the ex and his people were seated two tables behind us soon after we got our food. It was an unavoidable contact. But nothing could make my weekend uncomfortable, ya hear me!



NOW:
Now the house is stacked high with mountains of clothes, books, electronics, and other undisposable items that once adorned Kimbrough Hall room 209. Today is day ONE of many that I have designated for the organization of my "whatnots" scattered about the house. It's going to be a monumental task, but I say bring it on.


Coming of the summer:
So I already saw Star Wars. . .which was far, far from disappointing. I plan on seeing Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Batman Begins, and that Fantastic Four movie. I also plan on job hunting next week (oh so much fun). I went to Barnes & Noble to compile a personal summer reading list. I got two books: "One L" by Scott Turrow, a man vividly describing his first year at Harvard Law School. And "John Adams" by David McCoullah, the biography of John Adams. I plan on downloading music on top of music smothered in music with a slight drizzle of music with music on the side and garnished with music. I also pledge loyalty to my guitar once more- which can only mean that I must cut these dreadfully long fingernails- I can barely type, but at least they're mine.
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(no subject) [May. 27th, 2005|12:07 am]
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loyalty shall be consistent after May 29th
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I WILL explode [May. 4th, 2005|01:17 am]
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I'm not a person who gets bored easily. My mind is ridiculously busy and I am always analyzing everything I come in contact with. But when monotony has finally reached me, after a long battle to find something new in a monochromatic atmosphere. . .it makes me go INSANE!!!!

Point-blank: I AM WASTING MY ADOLESCENCE RIGHT NOW.
At this very moment, this time could be spent doing something worthwhile- something in which I can inundate myself in my youth. But i'm sitting here writing a journal entry that no one is really going to read.
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